6 Months

Tyler is a whopping 6 months today and as we take our first nap of the day I am a little overwhelmed with emotion. Maybe it is do to lack of sleep but either way here goes........

My life has changed so much over the last 4 years and even more over the last 6 months. People say I smile all the time and continue to glow. Personally I have never been happier. I have always had a great family, but I am so lucky to fine my lifelong partner and get married. Some people never do and I am grateful to be blessed. Not only did Jerry come into my life but Matt came too. Matt and I also have a special bond. I told him I am not your mom nor do I try but I am your family. I truly do love and care for him the way families do and would anything to help him succeed in life.

Then comes Tyler.........I remember the day Dr. Young said we were going to have him. Three weeks early. My Valentine baby in January, but with him came tons of love. During my pregnancy I just kept on saying I hope I can do this, I hope I am ready, I hope I will a be a good mom and be able to provide everything like my parents did. The day I went into labor I freaked out not only with joy, but my nerves got me since no one was around. This was not like I imagined or thought. I was in labor without Jerry, my mom or dad. NO NO NO, but then Matt was there . Matt calmed me down and reassured me that it all would be O.K.. When they announced it was a boy, my first words were "He has hair", as stupid as this sounds now, I always wanted a baby with hair. Over the last couple months there have been challenges but I look at Tyler to today and wonder how I survived without him. He is my pride and joy. I long to be with him every second of the day. I also think, will I ever have this moment again? No and yes. No in the since he will only be this small once, but yes because I will never forget what it is like to hold him, have him hold my hand with that tiny finger, and watch him fall asleep so peacefully. He is a gift from God. So as he wakes up now. I should post this before I don't have time. I could write forever on all the emotions I have today, but either way.......Happy Birthday Tyler....your Mommy loves you always.